Ever wonder what you would do if you received what you know would make you happy(ier)? If you received everything you have ever wished for, how would you feel?
Recently, I feel like the desires and dreams I have had secretly and publicly have been unfolding right before my eyes. What do you do when you realize your dreams are no longer something you wish on a star or a stray eyelash, they are now a part of your life? If you realize one day in the midst of the hustle and bustle of life that it isn't just going to work, putting the kids to bed, cleaning house, preparing for the next day, getting ready to go to work or bed, dealing with mad, frustrated, concerned or upset members, or even loving on the new people that comes into your life. It has become more. I feel like I slowed down just long enough to know that the things and people in my life every day are part of the dreams I have held close for so long. There are still daily struggles that I have and cannot seem to ever find a remedy or a middle ground for but that is reality. There are people I meet every week that make an impact on me one way or another. There are people that have come into my life, I find myself checking to make sure that it is possible that they are real. The longing and brokenness I have lived with has started to melt away into a feeling I have yet to label.
It seems as if every week something new hits me, that hasn't changed but what has is the ones around me and what is within me. My heart has begun to soften and my desire for more in life has begun to burn strongly once again. All of this has started unfolding right before my eyes. The encouraging words I have offered to a friend have started coming true in my own life. The unspoken longing that I have felt for as long as I can remember now has a glimmer of hope to finding a home. It's amazing and terrifying all at the same time. My kids have a stability and a better future than I could have imagined. Time has past and it no longer feels like my enemy. The future that I kept telling myself is possible is now my present life. The future that I now see is even better than I could have hoped. Not everything is rainbows and butterflies but I am moving and growing towards that place, the place where I have written about, desired and dreamed about for a long, long time.
My path looms ahead at times but it quit being scary. The nights are still long but they aren't as lonely as they have been.The days are still exhausting but they have purpose and drive me to a better tomorrow.
If your desires and dreams start unfolding right before your eyes, what will you do with it? Are you more scared of what will happen if they do come true or if they don't? What we want and what we need may be two different things but what if you get both? Why not expect more? God said He will give us the desires of hearts, why do we expect any different? Be looking for your desires, dreams and passions to unfold right before your eyes.
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