ME AND MY BIG MOUTH!!

  When I was younger I didn't get humor or sarcasm very well at all. I inherited that from my dad. As a young adult, I started catching on pretty good. Now, I am full of sarcasm and LOVE to make people laugh. Every once in a while, I will have a friend bring up something I said before I learned the art of sarcasm and figured out how to filter what I said. How embarrassing it is to hear some of those stories. I just cringe! Several of those instances got me in BIG trouble without even knowing it.

  Chloe's first Christmas Jayden was a little over two and she was 7 months. We literally spent $10 on each them. They always get spoiled with all of my family and I had found what suited them on sale. I said told one of my "friends" about it at a church I used to attend. I was very proud of that fact and had proclaimed I wouldn't buy them hundreds of dollars worth of toys for any occasion. I just knew how blessed we were at the sale and that they were young enough, it didn't matter. She then proceeded to go to my mother in-law (at the time) and ask her if we had enough money for food and presents for Christmas because I was telling everyone that we didn't have money. Me and my big mouth struck again! I had no idea that she would take it to the extreme. I thought I was being a thrifty wife and doing something good. Apparently not.

  Then, I was talking to another "friend" at this same church about our kids. Hers were grown but I was telling her how I hoped Jayden would look when he grew up. I described one of her sons and said he had a man's man physique. That is what I hoped for Jayden and I was hoping Chloe was shaped like her dad's side of the family because they were long and lean. That "friend" started the rumor that I "wanted her son" and I made comments about his body and how attractive he was.... Me and my big mouth got me into trouble AGAIN!! How does this keep happening?? By the way, her son looked like a tall, broad shouldered, bulldog. Just to clarify.

   I am that type of person that if asked for my opinion, I will tell you. I have learned to have tact and be diplomatic with my answers. There really isn't any guess work about me. Some people love that and others use that against me. I rarely ask for help. I like to do things on my own and have too much pride to seek help unless it involves my kids. The VERY few times I have asked for help, it was a disaster! I have been making 2014 my year. It has been a year since I made some life changing discoveries and will be a year since my divorce in a few weeks. I decided I would "risk" it and tell some "friends" about where I was at. I ended up taking their advice and getting into an absolute mess!! When I needed them the most, they wrote me off and I haven't heard from them since. I was standing beside all of my stuff in a building with no home and no where to go when how stupid I was to trust someone like that was. Me and my big mouth struck again!! This time, my need for a hand up spurred me on and I ended up getting a boot in the back end.

  Every once in a while, I get worried that my blog isn't being taken for what I want it to be used as. My desire is to HELP others. It is also to give me an outlet and a journal of this year. There is only so much I can write in a public forum without exposing or hurting some people. I try to filter things and say them in a good spirit. I try to display grace in the truth that I write. I could tell you the struggles I have been going through with family, ex's, step moms, ex in-laws, jobs or joblessness, personal struggles, dating, etc. In great detail. I have learned through my big mouth that I have to be careful what I reveal. There are those who add those golden nuggets up to use against me later. I have talked to a lot of people since the beginning of my divorce and have been able to help them through parts of my story. I share what I do not care is public knowledge. I do not use what is told to me as leverage later against someone or to discredit them when I see fit. I want this blog to lift up the Lord to others and let those who read it know they aren't alone in their daily struggles. It isn't for a gossip column or to try to convince the world I am something I am not. I am just as human as they come. Me and my big mouth get me into some fixes, but if writing about where I am or where I have been will help someone, I am willing to risk it. I am so thankful for those of you who have sent me messages of encouragement or written comments of how much my blog has helped you. I even have been told that some just love to read it because they feel like they are sitting on the couch with a friend. That is my goal. I hope you have enjoyed reading it as much as I have enjoyed writing it!!