GOD'S GRACE IS SUFFICIENT FOR....YOU.

   How many times have we quoted that "My grace is sufficient for you."? How many times have you told someone else that? We all believe it when we tell people that God's grace is sufficient for them. Here is where I stopped in my tracks. I believe it 100%, with everything that is in me that God has and gives us His amazing grace everyday. I do. What I found that I believe or didn't realize I believed, that His grace is sufficient for everyone else, but me. That sounds horrible. I know it does. I have told people of God's grace and God's love so many times, but what is so hard for me to grasp is that he has grace and love for ME. Not just my friends, church family, preacher, etc. He has it all and wants to give it all to ME.
   I have talked to many of you and tried to help you in any way I can. I have seen marriages put back together, women who were falling apart become so strong and determined, men who were at their wits end with their situations find hope. I am not crediting all of that to me but I would hope I had a part in their encouragement. I have a good grasp on spiritual things. I have a relationship with God. I know Bible verses and have had some personal experience with the Lord showing Himself to me. I "get" it, I really do.
   Here I am, telling everyone these things and I am not even listening to my own words. I do not apply them to me. God will show up when you least expect Him. God will never let you starve. God will speak to you, you just need to make sure your are listening. I have said it. I have experienced it. It just seems like, after so much that you quit believing it for yourself.
   I have never doubting the existence of God. The thought of Him being here since before time began, and knows everything seems completely illogical. On the flip side, it makes perfect sense. Once I asked Jesus into my hear to save me, I never doubted my salvation. It's just ironic to me that I believe He is God enough to "keep" my salvation but not God enough to take care of me. Think about it. How many times do we pray and "give" our problems to the Lord, just to turn around and be worrying ourselves over it a few minutes later? How many times do we try to make our own way because He hasn't "shown up" yet?
   I love my son just as much as I love my daughter. There are things about them that I love, that the other one doesn't posses. I love them equally. Sometimes, I feel closer to one than the other and then it changes again. I believe that we are made in Christ image and He feels the same way about us. If God can do ___ for ____, he can do it for me. Where I think we mess up is comparing our lives to someone else. We are different people. Just like I love certain things about one child that other doesn't posses. There are things that God knows we need because we have or don't have something in us or in our lives. We cannot expect to have everything the same as the next person. Just like buying presents for your kids. You may have a $100 budget. One may get a large present and a couple small things. The other may have a lot of smaller gifts. You spent the $100 on both, but with their perception, they may think the other one got more or a better gift, etc. It is the same with us, I believe. God loves us equally but gives us what we need at different levels, times and "costs" as He would one of His other children.
   The love is the same. The grace is the same. He is the same. It is us that are different. We perceive time and what He give to us in a different way than God does. How do we expect to think that same that He does, when we don't even have the whole picture?
  God's grace is sufficient for me. His love is the "same" for each one of His children. It doesn't matter what we go through, what we lack, what we don't have or need, He loves us. Period. There is nothing you can do to earn His love and approval. He gives it freely. There is nothing I can do. I am just as capable of receiving something from the Lord as anyone else. Just because I do not feel worthy doesn't make God any less likely to lavish me with His favour.
   I thank the Lord that He loves unconditionally. Even if I do not feel Him near, or hear His voice, I know He is there. My own worries drown out His voice. My own pain fills my ears that I cannot even hear Him speaking to my heart. He is there. I know that He is there.

  "I've been through enough to know He will be enough for me."